Saturday, October 29, 2011

Montiara Dim Sum House @ Perdana Park, Tanjung Aru





Did I tell you I am my mother's business partner? So, I am.

We are opening a new Dim Sum House/Kitchen at Perdana Park in Tanjung Aru. 

It's a very beautiful place to jog, chill or hang out.

Come, come.

Montiara @ Catering and Staffs


Crazy Love - Wise and Otherwise, Harry Manx



Wherever you are, I hope you are listening to this.

I can hear a heartbeat
For a thousand miles
Heaven's open up
Everytime she smiles
When I'm with her
Oh thats where I belong
And now I'm rolling to her
Like a river rolling strong



Yah I need her in the morning
Yah I need her late at night

She give me love love love
Well well now, crazy love



Harry Manx

What is cooking?

Beras dah habis la...



We who are young, should now take a stand
Don't run from the burdens of women and men
Continue to give, continue to live
For what you know is right



Curtis Mayfield





At 5:33PM





Another day is gone... What a beautiful Saturday.

Goodnight My Sweetheart, The Flower Pot.

Friday, October 28, 2011

Australia's Outback, when will we meet?


Milky Way in the Red Centre; no telescope required. ©SporlederArt.com
US-based photographer Scott Sporleder is touring Australia’s Outback, the Northern Territory in October 2011. Check out his pics from his self-driving journey through the Red Centre, including Alice Springs, Rainbow Valley, the West MacDonnell Ranges, Kings Canyon and Uluru. Truly inspirational. You can follow Scott’s journey via Twitter #MatadorTIR.

Hold On, Steve Winwood




Don't be ashamed to hold your head up. Walking to this state of mind aint' no big deal. Don't be afraid to reach out and there's a friendly sky. Take your clue. All you've got to do is...

Hold on to me, when you're falling down to the ground.

Sometimes I Feel So Uninspired - On The Road, Traffic

Just Today, Good Morning Sunshine :)







Aren't they lovely?

Energy Block

Need some sunshine...

Thursday, October 27, 2011

Green is Fabulous!

 Look what I've got in my balcony today! My baby! Isn't she beautiful?




I am the happiest woman in Gowrie Street today :)

Firasat, Marcell


Ku percaya alam pun berbahasa, ada makna dibalik semua petanda...

Alhamdulillah, Too Phat Dian Sastro and Yasin



I can almost cry, listening to this song again after a very long time. Masya Allah.

I think Dian Sastro speaks the most beautiful Indonesian.

Battlefield


Whether humanity will consciously follow the law of love, I do not know. But that need not disturb me. The law will work just as the law of gravitation works whether we accept it or not.


Mahatma Ghandi.


I am reading a book called The Power by Rhonda Byrne. It eventually breaks my heavily defended fortress and get my imprisoned mind and soul back to Reality. I have always been very timid and hid behind that person I should have been. Where were I? The past 7 lonely years.

A child is pure and free. Growing up as one, I had no limitation in What I Wanted to Become. It had always been about Me and The World. I was a very active and adventurous little girl but loneliness was always my best friend. So used to going back to being lonely and unheard during the night. I refused to open up to a lot of people, and that included my parents. Trust was never there.

I hope this book could expand my horizon and release all those negative energy I have been carrying around for these many many years.

Wednesday, October 26, 2011

Sensuality, Brian Culbertson


My first Culbertson's song.

I will never forget.

Seven Years, Norah Jones



I am still that little girl.

Nothing is going to change between me and me.

Sounds like a plan

We have been tossing our heads around whether or not to apply for the Australian Permanent Residency.

The good sides of having a PR is we could easily travel in and out of Australia with least difficulties. Apart from that, job opportunities would be widely available at any point of time. Medical, Education, subsidies as well as personal loans could also be enjoyed.

The bad would be of course we must reside in Australia for at least 2 years out of every 5 year term upon approval/renewal. Which of course will affect our long term endeavours back in Malaysia, supposedly. Which is of utmost importance.

If PR application does not proceed, we can get our tax/super contributions refunded upon departing to Malaysia. We could also save a lot of money in application/processing fee and time.

After much discussion, this seems to be what is going to happen within/in the next 7 months (Insya Allah):

1) Graduation
2) PR application would not proceed
3) Business Administration Certificate III (Legal) from Tafe Australia will be pursued
4) Resignation at Wilde & Woollard
5) Garage Sale/Freight
6) Architecture Diploma/Undergraduate Program (Malaysia) enquiries

Long Term Plans (Insya Allah):

1) CLP Program (Malaysia)
2) Architecture Diploma/Undergraduate Program (UTM/Uitm)

I am very nervous.

Fallen, Lauren Wood & Jeanie Cunningham



I have never had a song for Kota Kinabalu but this is The One.

Everything about Kota Kinabalu and the memories she contained is here in this very sweet song from the Pretty Women soundtrack.

It feels so free and liberated to be home. I love the beach and the ocean a lot although it isn't so clean anymore.

Long time no see!

Elisha my friend from Singapore is married to an Aussie bloke and they are recently blessed with a daughter named Maya.

I offered to take care of baby Maya when Jack's mother leaves. I am very concerned for her and hope her confinement is thoroughly smooth although she is having none. I asked her to keep both her legs tight together otherwise it could cause prolapse.

We will be seeing them this Sunday after Annabel's Mickey Mouse 3rd birthday party in Woolcock Park.

Babies are very loveable.

I Don't Want No One But You, Ray Charles

Tuesday, October 25, 2011

Sam Cooke You Send Me




Some people live in pure sacrifices, some for a piece of bread, some people chase fame, some people are born to be leaders, some are born to be great, some dwell in romantic pursuits, many others are ordinary and happy.

Whatever we are, always remember that we are very lucky to be that, that makes you, you. And me, me. In this cosmic order.

Whatever we are, always remember that we are very lucky to be able to witness God's greatest creation. That is you and me.

I hope everyone in this world is going to wake up to a beautiful sunrise and sleep peacefully under the moonlight.

Pursue what you desire.

Why does a gentle soul have a heart of a beast?












So that you still keep fighting the good fight. 


I no longer tolerate pessimism and melancholia. 


My struggles, experiences, personalities are exciting, valuable and that is how I am going to pursue this course of life.


I am a strong woman and it has been the same now, in near future and will forever be.


I am smart, intelligent, beautiful, and I am proud to be me. 


I embrace positivity in life and I struggle to succeed in this life and the life after. 


I will always protect my family.


I have the maturity to be able to differentiate the good and the bad.


I have a kind heart that could keep me humble and see living from a different perspective.


I cherish goodness.


I have the energy to realise my dreams and hobbies.


I bring good vibes amongst my circle of friends.


I am not embarrass to be different.


I see beyond words and results are the best judges of my actions as well as endeavours.


With Allah's willing and guidance, Insya Allah we can together build a strong and successful ummah. 



You make me smile, Aloe Blacc



I would like to tell my husband that, "All in all you've been right here with me".

Is it magic?

You know you love someone when you can't stop thinking of him/her. Sometimes forever.

It's the beat of his heart. And it's the beat of her heart.

Green is for my Plant

It has been too long since I set into the pattern again. It's bitter. It's not easy to cure a broken heart. It's unimaginable but movies do happen in real life. At least it does in mine. Someone removed my Sleepless in Seattle DVD from the drawer. It can't be found.

What am I going to teach my children if they keep seeing me weep? I'd like to bring up beautiful children if I do have one. If I could, four seems like a good number.

My period has been late. But, I am still not pregnant. I do not bother counting the days anymore. Come what may...

I am getting more boring. Sense of music taste, sense of fashion are so plain. Although I like living in the comfort of my skin. I am sure internal beauty or self worth counts in this universe.


Have you seen my green plant? It's growing expeditiously. And all bushy. I am so incapable of taking care of one. I try to water the pot once a day but it is still not flowering. I will see what I can do when I go to Mitre 10 next week.

Yesterday was my first swim lesson and I was thrown into the pool swimming like a pro instead of getting myself comfortable with the water. I was panic throughout the 30 minute coaching. We'll see how it goes tomorrow. It's a bit lonely to do swim lesson alone. I asked Hazel if she would like to join me.

Little things make me happy these days. I miss my big imagination but it is subsiding a bit by bit, day by day.

Black Heart

Ya Allah Ya Rabbi,

Why am I still thinking about Lockes. I dreamt of him last night. I was walking to the end of the city which was so much the same street I walked down in my previous dream. I stumbled into him and I knew for sure it was Lockes. It was Lockes.

My heart pains when I think of him. Why God? That I don't deserve him?

I shiver when I think of him.

It has always been a long road. Somehow we are that destination that could not be, which I think I will never see in this life.

Whatever it is, I pray to Allah Subahanahu Wa Taala to protect him and let him have peace with what he desires. He deserved all the best things in this world. May his journey to success is blessed by You.

Masya Allah.

Thursday, October 20, 2011

Great Sacrifices Come with Great Rewards

I have to stop lingering in negative thoughts. I am worthier than what I realised.

It has to start with a small step and bigger leap of faith and confidence.

Last night, I drove around Annerley and picked up Razin from the bus stop. Finally, my husband gave me the license to drive in Brisbane.

Today, I plan to do a little bit of Corporations Law revision.

This January, I am going to enrol for Business Administration Certificate III to get my CV going. It is a short programme organised by Inspire Education of Australia or Tafe perhaps.

My visa is still processing and it might be postponed until I get my Chest X-Ray taken.

I am going back to Malaysia again this 20th November. I might want to get telekung (prayer veil)  and some light Islamic readings for Hazel.

I have been sleeping and bumming too much at home. I made daily roster and hopefully I am disciplined enough to follow through what I have planned for the rest of the day.

Sometimes, I don't know what I should do, where to harvest motivation/inspiration. I should not complicate things and make a simple decision one at a time.

I need more colours in my life. Since, it's already Spring let's go out for some fresh air...

Suddenly my mind is transported back to the small/tiny Kadazan grocery shop in Kepayan. Those vegetables were so fresh from the ground. Wish I could grow my own food. I have started growing a flower plant but it isn't flowering. I am a bit concerned. They say, when you start connected to the nature, you will get back most of yourself. That is after all, what we are made of and where we will go back to.